how the hell did I lose a friend I never had?

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I know I'll be alright, but I'm not tonight

I know I'll be alright, but I'm not tonight
I'll be lying awake counting all the mistakes I've made
replaying fights

I'd apologize if I thought it might make a difference
or make you listen
I'd apologise if it was black and white
but life is different

just try to listen to me now

I lost a friend, and nobody believes me
say, "I know that he don't need me
'cause he made a little too much money to be 20 and sad"

and I'll be fine without 'em
but all I do is write about 'em